Inner musings

So as I sit here with my cappuccino trying to figure out how to manifest money I am trying to comprehend how I am in this predicament and why even with no clear route out I have an inner sense of calm and well-being. I find this truly bizarre. If I discount money I have an incredibly abundant life. I have the richest of friendships, most of whom feel more like family to me and indeed I consider them a part of my soul family. I feel completely blessed to be able to express myself on here and on my you tube channel. I feel so connected when I do my daily insights, storytellings especially when I find out that my ramblings resonate for others and it helps them make sense of their own lives and journeying. I guess this is why I am writing this here and now. I wanted to share as I know that it helps to put these things out of our heads so we don't end up down a rabbit hole of what if's, why me's and other unhelpful internal dialogues. I find there are times when you end up in these internal loops that it is hard to move through it. We end up with inaction and in a way stagnation, I am reminded of an ostrich with its head in the sand. Which means that it is difficult to see the synchronisties that always exist. In the midst of it all I have seen the most amazing rainbow today and the subsequent lightening of the sky, a reminder that it is always darkest before the dawn. I really don't understand why, but I have a deep abiding sense that everything is as it is meant to be. In all of this I am reminded of the essentials of the world for me. The beauty around me everywhere, the joy of seeing and hearing the birds, my connection with the earth, my most amazing soul family, being able to play and laugh with children. Being able to do daily insights that support others. I have an ability to laugh, play, tell stories, sing and dance. I am fortunate to be able to integrate the various aspects of myself. I also have my health and able to find a deep sense of the divine. So I guess what I am trying to say is that there are more aspects of abundance than money and today I am celebrating that in my life.